I remember in drivers ed being told it was important to look at the rearview mirror and side view mirrors every couple of seconds so that you know what is going on around you. I certainly feel like I am looking behind me every few seconds right now. I see friends, a beloved church, ministry, known shopping and the local Starbucks. At the same time I am hurtling forward with a new church, new home, new ministry, and a new Starbucks in front of me(can you tell I searched for a Starbucks this week to work on my sermon for this coming Sunday?!?).
There is also a bit of a time warp going on as I am hurtling forward, yet it is as if God has picked up my car… I race my engine but can’t go anywhere until God puts me back onto the road. It is amazing how much I like to drive my own car!!! I would have thought I was much more patient and ready for God’s will in my life, but as I am in this time of transition, the real me is revealed. So I am taking some friends’ advice (yes, it has taken more than one friend!) and I am trying to let God work on that part of me. This morning I imagined that instead of trying to drive the car, that I just enjoy the view of where I am right now. I have had several amazing hikes this past week, and got to play with my new camera with the lunar eclipse this morning.
Because I have looked back, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I certainly do not want to go where God doesn’t want me. Because I have looked back, I know that God gifted me with my old neighborhood, my old church, my old ministry and my old friends. I can trust God in this next phase as well.
And now, O Lord, for what do I wait? My hope is in you. (Psalm 39:7)
For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen.
(2 Corinthians 4:17-18)